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Thursday, October 30, 2008

comeback of me

if i go down, i m bringing u down with me.
i will do whatever it takes.



where there is hope, there will be a person hanging there. lets not talk about anything specifically, but generally. in every second of our life, we keep holding on because of hopes. hopes that make us feel worth it to keep on trying. where the hopes are coming from? can be from a person that really matter in our life, can be from a goal that we really want to achieve in life. and can be from a heart that belong to us, our own heart.

its the best that we live for our own. not for other person, not because of other person. hoping for a miracle to happen, when it didn't happen it hurt so much.

i m tired of hoping that the day will come when all that what i m hoping to happen, will really happen. i m tired of waiting, and i m tired of assuming. because the facts is killing me.

is there any more hopes in this cruel world where people never think of others but themselves?
don't be a person that so noble to think about others, when there's no one that is thinking about u.


Wednesday, October 29, 2008

fail again

huwaaaaaaaaaaaa.. i failed my driving test for d 2nd time. dont want to take it anymore. huwaaaaaaaaaa.. d biggest loser in d world goes to.... me!

COD - forgot to wear seat belt.

p/s : pasni nk pakai drebar. xya amek lesen da


related post : 2nd Driving Test

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

2nd Driving Test

tomorrow will be my drivng test. my 2nd time driving test. haha.. i failed for the 1st time. har3.. yesterday i went for refresher class. i almost forgot how to drive a car!! im such a messy when it come to drive a car. wish me luck frens.. i dont wish to fail for the 2nd time. heeee..


Saturday, October 25, 2008

going back to my hometown

now the study week ( which reminds us that exam week will be the next ) has come. im going back to my hometown today. peuwhh..!!~ what a relieve. i cant wait to reach home. cant wait to be home. cant wait to feel like home. i will come back on 2nd, and will have my first paper on 6th. so, wish me luck for the final. and wish u all guys very good luck. study..!! =]

p/s : i just love seth cohen.. and of course summer. marissa? not likeable..


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Job Interview

This morning i attended a job interview test for my LSP 404 Technical & Engineering English. i was very nervous since last night. cant sleep (i mean not enough sleep.. hehe.. doesnt mean i cant really sleep) but luckily, everything went well, perfectly. and hopefully the result will also be perfect.
Here's some of the questions that have been asked. These are for my friends' referrence since i believe still got many of them havent attend for the test yet.

1) Tell me more about yourself. (1st and common Q)
2) What is the subjects that u have learned during your degree that related to this job position?
3) What do you see in yourself as a team player?
4) Do u like to do research? What kind of research?
5) Some opinions said that women engineers have many disadvantages. What do you think?
6) Why do you think you should be accepted for this position?
7) Do you have anything in your mind that u like to ask me?

However, there are many other questions that can be asked from the interviews such as
8) What is your strenght?
9) What is your weakness?
10) What do you like to do most?
11) How can you see yourself in 5 / 10 years?
12) If you are choosen to take this position, what will you do to improve the company perfomance?
13) Can u work in a group?
14) How can you improve yourself?

and i believe that a lot of questions more not stated here as the interviewers can ask you anything they want related to the job u applied as well as your answer for their previous question. so remember to be calm and have confident. believe in yourself that you can do it.

Good Luck to all my friends.


Monday, October 13, 2008

i believe in the thing called love..do i?

what is love?

i cant even define the word love, then how can i believe in the thing that i barely know?
i do once thought that i believed in this thing, but its never actually trustworthy.

i have felt it and lived it and now it leaves me here. love is the ultimate pain and joy. without it you die, with it you perish. falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful. i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go. things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

some said, love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. that's why loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices but I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you, at least once... and now it all falls apart. but i know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. in this life, i was loved by you.

pleasure of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime. the ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most. we have to realize that we are as deeply afraid to live and to love as we are to die. love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense.

but love makes time pass. and time makes love pass. what has faded, is already lost. don't ever think that your love has slowly fade away, there's no such thing. do realize that your love is already gone.

the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. if you love something, let it go. if it comes back to you, its yours forever. if it doesn't, then it was never meant to be.

dear lover,
if i has to choose between loving you and breathing, i would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

...Him that I love, I wish to be free--even from me


Sunday, October 12, 2008

quote for the day

i watched a movie last night, "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days?" i guess its quite late for me to comment about the movie since the movie is in 2003. but i attracted to a quote which is

" Better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all... "

is it?

i have been loved and lost, and i will never regret it as it was the most wonderful feeling i ever had.


Saturday, October 11, 2008



I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand


I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

im thinking of posting song lyrics that i feel meaningful, interesting and sometimes, can touch my heart. so i start with this song. this song is specially requested from my buddy ( wan zoraimie.. he's a very wonderful person)
this is an old song, i think came out when i were in form 5. i personally love this song since this song is dedicated to me from someone.
the writer wanted to tell the listeners about how hard he tried to stay in love with his lover. he almost forget about himself while he was trying very hard to save the relationship. but i think, enough is enough. he had enough and he wanted to move on.
so to those who scarified everything just for his/her loved one, please think about yourself first. make sure your lost is for good.



Ingin mencari pasangan hidup dan cinta sejati adalah lumrah kita sebagai manusia. Sebagai wanita pula, kerisauan takut tersilap pilih pasangan adalah lebih dari lelaki.
Ini kerana sekiranya wanita tersilap pilih lelaki, maka kesan buruk yang bakal dilalui dalam hidup memberi kesan dan trauma yang mendalam terhadap emosi dan kehidupan mereka seterusnya.
Walaupun semua wanita tahu wujudnya lelaki yang ‘berbahaya’ namun masih ramai wanita tanpa sedar atau tidak terlibat bertemu dan berpasangan dengan mereka.
Kenapa masih ramai juga wanita terlibat memilih lelaki berbahaya?
Adakah mereka sengaja melibatkan diri dengan mereka? Tak mungkin!
Adakah mereka dikaburi dengan perasaan kesunyian dalam hidup dan amat memerlukan cinta dan kasih-sayang sehingga membuat pilihan yang salah?
Adakah mereka mempunyai tabiat atau sikap yang tak disedari dari dulu lagi yang menyebabkan mereka sentiasa memilih dan terlibat dengan lelaki berbahaya?
Adakah cara mereka dibesarkan dalam keluarga yang porak-peranda dan kurang perhatian menyebabkan mereka cenderung ke arah memilih lelaki seperti ini tanpa mereka sedar?
Atau adakah dengan mudah kita nak menyatakan itu adalah takdir yang Maha Esa?
Saya tertarik untuk menulis artikel berkaitan dengan lelaki berbahaya ni sebab pada pandangan saya, (anda pun mungkin setuju..) semakin hari semakin ramai wanita yang terlibat berpasangan dengan lelaki yang berbahaya. Tak kiralah sama ada sebagai teman lelaki mahu pun wanita yang telah berumahtangga.
Satu perkara yang memang pasti, wanita Tak Sedar dan Tak Tahu pun pada awal perkenalan atau perhubungan bahawa lelaki yang menjadi pasangannya itu berbahaya.
Macamana nak tahu seseorang lelaki itu berbahaya atau tidak? Ada ramai lagi ke lelaki yang betul-betul baik dan “sihat” dalam dunia ni?
Ada, kalau anda sendiri “sihat” dari segi emosi dan mempunyai pengetahuan yang berkaitan.
Ini membolehkan anda sekiranya berjumpa dengan lelaki jenis ini dan mengenalinya, anda mampu menghadapi dan seterusnya menjauhkan dia dari hidup anda. Hasilnya, anda boleh menumpukan masa, tenaga dan emosi untuk memfokuskan kepada lelaki yang baik dan sihat emosinya.
Adakah anda memahami peranan dan keadaan diri anda seterusnya menggunakan pengetahuan yang ada untuk mengubah keadaan supaya hidup anda berubah dan lebih selamat?
Artikel kali ini, saya terangkan dengan ringkas siapa dia yang dikatakan lelaki berbahaya supaya sekurang-kurangnya dapat membantu anda melihat dengan lebih luas lagi konsep tersebut.
Siapa lelaki yang berbahaya?
Lelaki yang boleh dikategorikan sebagai berbahaya kepada anda wanita ialah:
“Lelaki yang merosakkan/mengganggu/menyakitkan dan mendera pasangannya secara percakapan, emosi, fizikal, seksual, spiritual, undang-undang dan juga kewangan.”
Secara Percakapan termasuk mengugut anda, memaki-hamun, meninggikan suara seperti selalu menengking dan menghina maruah anda dengan perkataan.
Penderaan emosi pula termasuk mengawal dan mendominasi dengan tidak membenarkan atau memberi anda peluang untuk membuat pilihan. Contohnya, anda nak berpakaian pun nak kena ikut sedap mata dia saja malah cara anda berpakaian perlahan-lahan ditentukan olehnya.
Dia kerap mengkritik anda yang akhirnya membuatkan anda berasa terlalu rendah diri. Cemburu buta yang melampau sampai anda nak berkawan pun tak boleh. Segala yang anda buat mesti bagi tau dia dan mendapat izin darinya. Pendek kata putih kata dia maka putih la anda ikut.
Memalukan anda dan merendahkan anda di hadapan orang lain juga antara bentuk deraan emosi. Kadang-kala memandang anda macam “nak makan” supaya anda sentiasa patuh dan takut padanya.
Secara Seksual boleh dikatakan seperti memaksa pasangan/isteri melakukan hubungan seks di luar tabii, memaksa menonton filem lucah, dan memaksa pasangan/isteri melakukan seks di luar kehendak isteri sebagai contoh memaksa isteri melakukan seks sewaktu isteri dalam haid sedangkan isteri menolak.
Secara Kewangan pula faham-faham je la ya. Memang ada wanita malah ramai wanita yang membantu pasangannya dalam bentuk kewangan. Yelah, bukan apa, sesekali ‘top-up’kan ‘handphone’ contohnya, lagi pun bukannya orang lain..’boyfriend sendiri jugak.
Bagi wanita yang dah berumahtangga, membantu suami dalam bentuk kewangan sekiranya mampu dapat juga meringankan bebanan kewangan suami dan keluarga. Apatah lagi sekiranya suami mengalami masalah kewangan.
Sesekali itu biasa. Luar biasa jika sanggup berhabis untuk pasangan sampai hidup sendiri nak makan pun takde sedangkan lelaki itu terus-menerus “menyedut” anda sampai tinggal rangka!
Bagi wanita yang dah berkahwin pula, suami menghabiskan wang ringgit isteri sehingga tahap duit isteri duit dia, duit dia duit dia sedangkan dalam masa yang sama suami mampu berhibur dan berfoya-foya tanpa menghulur sesen pun nafkah untuk isterinya.
Antara tujuan lelaki seperti ini ialah supaya anda menjadi papa dan bergantung hanya kepada dia. Secara tak langsung anda dapat dikawal supaya tidak meninggalkannya kerana sumber kewangan anda hanya kepada dia. Situasi ini banyak terjadi kepada wanita yang telah berkahwin dan hanya sedar selepas keadaan menjadi parah.
Penderaan Fizikal seperti yang anda sedia maklum adalah tindakan ganas seperti memukul, menampar, menumbuk, menolak, menggunakan senjata, kunci anda dalam bilik, menarik rambut dan sebagainya yang berbentuk fizikal.
Secara Spiritual pula selalu menyatakan kepada isterinya bahawa isteri akan jadi derhaka sekiranya menentang atau melawan suami. Kebanyakan lelaki seperti ini menggunakan ayat ini untuk menakutkan dan melemahkan wanita. Dalam masa yang sama dia melayan isterinya dengan buruk dan tidak menunaikan tanggungjawab sebagai suami.
Suka juga saya tambah di sini, bagi yang sedang ‘bercouple’ tu, sekiranya ‘boyfriend’ anda merajuk atau marah kerana anda tolak kehendaknya, seperti mencium anda atau lebih jauh lagi melakukan hubungan sex sebelum kahwin, ini bermakna dia tidak menghormati anda sebagai wanita dan mempermainkan hak anda untuk mempertahankan kesucian diri seperti yang dituntut oleh agama.
Secara undang-undang pula berlaku sekiranya telah bercerai, lelaki tidak memberi nafkah kepada anak yang telah ditentukan oleh pihak mahkamah. Atau sengaja tidak hadir ke mahkamah dengan sengaja untuk melambat-lambatkan proses mahkamah dengan niat supaya isteri terpaksa menunggu lama untuk mendapat pembelaan dan sebagainya.
Seseorang lelaki itu boleh dikatakan sebagai pilihan yang berbahaya untuk anda ‘dating’ atau berpasangan dengannya sekiranya dia:
• Mahukan anda berhenti kerja atau bertukar rakan-rakan hanya kerana dia sahaja.
• Tidak menghormati masa anda untuk bersendirian/‘privacy’. Apa anda nak buat semua dia nak tau. Kalau petang anda telefon dia, kena ‘hantar report’ apa yang anda buat sebelum tu dan apa yang anda nak buat selepas itu. Senang cakap apa saja anda buat dan nak buat dia nak tahu.
• Suruh anda buat perkara yang anda tak selesa buat seperti menipu bagi pihaknya, pinjamkan dia duit sedangkan baru seminggu dua kenal.
• Mendesak ingin selalu berjumpa anda. Hari ni baru jumpa, esok nak jumpa lagi. Dua tiga hari kemudian nak jumpa lagi. Anda kata sibuk atau ada hal, dia pujuk. Anda tetap kata tak boleh dia mendesak juga.
• Ada reputasi menipu.
• Kaki judi, peminum arak.
• Menggunakan dadah atau pil-pil khayal.
• Pernah gagal dalam banyak perhubungan cinta yang lepas dalam sejarah hidupnya. Berapa kali nak kata banyak ya? Kalau umur baru 25 tahun dah gagal bercinta 5-6 kali tu banyak tu… Cinta monyet tak kira!
• Tidak memuji malah menampakkan sikap tidak suka kepada kedua ibu bapanya sedangkan anda dapat rasa dan tau kedua ibu bapanya bukanlah orang yang jahat. Walau pun kedua ibu bapanya ada membuat kesalahan, memburukkan kedua ibu bapa sendiri lebih-lebih lagi pada peringkat baru anda kenali dia menunjukkan sesuatu yang tidak kena dengannya.
• Mempunyai sejarah telah didiagnosis mengalami masalah tekanan jiwa atau “mental illness”
• Tidak berkerja,(Sebab pemalas) Ada sahaja alasan sedangkan anda lihat dia bukanlah sakit atau bodoh.
• SELALU bertukar-tukar kerja atau dipecat dan SENTIASA memberi alasan menyalahkan orang lain sebab kehilangan kerjanya itu.
• Ingin mengawal fesyen rambut anda, pakaian anda, sikap dan cara anda, rakan-rakan atau dengan siapa anda berkawan dan kerja anda pun dia nak kawal juga.
• Menyembunyikan sesuatu maklumat penting tentang dirinya yang anda hanya tau kemudian. Sebagai contoh, dia kata dia bujang, rupanya duda, memanglah duda tu bujang..tapi kenapa tak cakap awal-awal dia pernah kahwin.
• Merasakan dirinya saja yang istimewa, unik dan lebih baik berbanding orang lain.
• Percaya undang-undang untuk orang lain, dia tak tertakluk pada undang-undang dan boleh buat apa yang dia suka.
• Terlalu menarik dan peramah lebih dari kebiasaan. Perlu ambil perhatian di sini, lelaki yang ‘handsome’, cute, ‘smart’, peramah dan boleh membuat perempuan tertarik padanya dengan cepat sekali dari segi penampilannya, caranya, fizikalnya atau apa saja pada dirinya, anda perlu berhati-hati.
Perbezaan di antara wanita yang bersama/berpasangan hanya sekali sahaja dengan lelaki berbahaya berbanding wanita yang kerap berjumpa/berpasangan/ dengan lelaki seperti ini ialah wanita yang pertama itu ‘terbuka’ untuk belajar dan kenal dengan cepat kesilapannya.
Wanita kedua pula tak mahu belajar, banyak memberi alasan atau gagal ‘membuka’ minda untuk mendapat pengajaran.
Hasilnya wanita yang pertama akan lebih kuat, berkeyakinan, berfikiran positif dan akhirnya mampu bertemu cinta sejati dengan lelaki yang ‘sihat dan selamat’.
Wanita kedua pula, akan terus derita..itu saja!
Anda dalam golongan yang mana?

credit to adha


Friday, October 10, 2008


1. Tell her she is beautiful
2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its Just for a second.
3. Hug her from behind
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her
6. Don’t go hang out with your ex when she’s not with you, you might not relize how badly it Hurts her.
7. If youre talking to another girl, when you’re done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s yours and they aren’t.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say “hi”
9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
10.Play with her hair.
11.Pick her up (she loves it)
12.Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn’t like it
13.Make her laugh
14.Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15.If she’s mad at you, kiss her.
16.If you care about her, then TELL HER
17.Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she’ll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she’ll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she’ll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.
18.Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.
19.Look her in the eyes and smile.
20.Hang out with her on weekends
21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
22.Kiss her just for the heck of it
23.If your listening to music, let her listen too.
24.Remember her birthday and get her something, even ifnits simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. It means all the world to HER.
25.When she gives you a present on your birthday, Hari Raya, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don’t (it’ll make her happy.)
26.Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don’t care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don’t necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
27.Give her wat she wants
28.Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
29.Dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she’ll feel left out.
30.Hang out with her whenever you are free
31.If u care about her…SHOW her!

credit to adha


bbq on november

en repu kte, "li, ble nk wak bbq nye?" ak pn kte, tgu cuti bln 11 r. sdak2 ak je. hahaha.. repu kte ag, "kali ni ajk bdk2 jntan rmai skek. ak sokmo sorg laki. malu wase." malu ngat repu.wuuu.. hahaha.. dh kali ni plan awl2 la. sek2 ni bz sokmo kalo kabo laz min. nk2 mek b. heeee.. jgn mrh biyah.. kali ni kte ajk blake ank brnk, se trg kte ajk.. bia pcoh gego gtu..

1) repu kte xkn tiap taun nk wak kt umoh ank sidek owk? ngamuk sidek kam. hehehe.. taun ni ye ajk wak pata. pata ane dakhu. batu buruk ke, lagoon ke, kt airport ke.. kte sme2 la bncang. heeee
2) nk bako kne ad modal. ak suggest kte kutip 8 ribu sorg. bleh r kte beli ngan pata tu skali. taun dpn nk bbq lok x yoh ssh2 cri tmpt dh. hahahaha.. molek r.. 10 yal sorg byk ke skek? klu perut tong drum blake, x ckup ak wase..
3) menu pn pnting nih.. taun ni xkn blk2 aym, sosej, daging burger, mi goreng mk tpoh.. hehe.. ak nk crab stick lok. nsi beriyani mk tpoh ke.. ngeh3

ni pesanan penaja:
1) x soh wak x reti la.. wi feed back skek.. kam jd abu je plan ni
2) utk repu.. tgs mu beli aym.. suh mek ain perap.. blajo2 la. x lme dh tu.. hahaha
3) biyah, jgn wak2 bz r. org len cuti blake. soh lebom mu x cuti. time tu nk rye aji dh
4) mekrah blk kg. wahi ngak duk kolumpo tu.. blk 5 mnt bek x soh.. xdang jpe saing2
5) utk ak, ble nk mkn pjuk nye. kekg org ad bf ak kelip2 sorg ( brangan ngak ar.ye amboh ke mu..wuwuwuw)
6) slaen bbq, ble nk men bdmnton ngn futsal nye?????


Thursday, October 9, 2008

tribute to nana

15 January 2004..
it was 4 years ago, and still it hunting me. i lost her, we lost her. it was like just yesterday we eat together, play together, training together. but today, im here struggling with books and of coz real world around me without her.
she is not only my best friend, but also a sister for me. there was a dream, we going to matriculation together. there was a dream, we will graduate together. those were promises, and she broke the promises. now, even after 4 years every second is a thought for her. she is the greatest best friend i ever had.
she left without a word, and i lost her without saying goodbye. the last time she said " i love u ", there was no reply from me. it was not a no, but i just thought that no need to say it out loud. bcoz there will be much more time left for us to be together. i never know that there were no time anymore. no more.
yesterday, today and tomorrow, i always want to say " i love u too". can she really hear me? can she reply me?
nana, i missed u.

blue - if u come back

for all this time

i've been lovin' you girl, yes i have

ever since the day you left me here alone

i've been trying to find the reason why

so if i did something wrong please tell me,

i wanna understand

'cos i don't want this love ever end

and i swear...

if you come back in my life

i'll be there till the end of time

and i swear

i'll keep you right by my side

cos baby you're the one i want

i watched you go

takin' my heart with you, yes you did

every time i try to reach you on the phone

baby you're never there, girl you never home

so if i did something wrong please tell me

i wanna understand

'cos i don't want this love to ever end

maybe i didn't know how to show it

maybe i didn't know what to say

this time i won't disguise

than we can build our lives and we can be as one

in memory of Amelia Syazana Azizan 1987-2004


Pulled Hamstring

i thought after few days of complete rest, without training or even stretching would lessen my pain. but it became worst. now its almost 2 months already. lastly i went to a doctor last week and she said its a pulled hamstring.

" a hamstring strain or a pulled hamstring as it is sometimes called is a tear in one or more of the hamstrings muscles. "

i need to go to the physiotherapy or else i cant recover. what did i do wrong? last tournament was a quite success, even it was just a silver medal. but it worth trying.

" there are a number of factors that increase the risk of an individual to a pulled hamstring:
  • Age: The older the individual the greater at risk to a pulled hamstring.
  • Previous Injury: Prior injuries to the hamstrings or adductor muscles can greatly increase the risk of the hamstrings to future damage.
  • Flexibility: Research suggests that the greater the flexibility of the hamstrings the less prone they are to injury.
  • Hamstring strength: Similarly studies have shown that lack of hamstring strength is strongly linked to a susceptibility to a pulled hamstring.
  • Lumbosacral nerve impingement: Nerve impingement in L5-S1 can lead to associated hamstring muscle weakness.
  • Tiredness and fitness: When a player is fatigued he/she loses coordination between within certain muscle groups. The biceps femoris muscle is known to become damaged due its two portions being innervated by two separate nerves. In states of tiredness, lack of synchronization between these two nerves can lead to a mismatch in firing resulting in a pulled hamstring. "
what i can say is, im only 20 and of coz age is not the factor. previous injury, is a yes. clearly, after every tournament i attended there must be a small injury involving hamstring. it can be not-serious hamstring strain or just few blue-black all over my arms and my legs. but this time, its a serious one. another factors that can be the cause of my injury is flexibility and tiredness and fitness. i thought i had proper and enough stretching before every match , but maybe it wasn't. plus, i was very tired that time. i fought 4 rounds before went to final. and the final round is the VIP match, at 6 pm. i kicked people the whole day, from 8 am to 6 pm. serve me right. heeeeee... after hours of competition of coz my fitness decreased. and i pulled my hamstring. that's the conclusion.

" The most important phase for treatment is the first 48 hours post-injury: Use Cold Therapy (Rest, Ice, Compress, Elevate) technique. "

done! nothing's change. then, what to do? i have to forget the UTM Kewaja this weekend bcoz of this injury. my instructor asked me to go for therapy and didn't allow me to train too hard. pewh..!! i hate it. after months of hard work, i will lost everything to an injury. and its not easy to make a come back later. i cant reach to my old performance in a short time. hard work again, i guess. and sure, hard training.
end of this month, i will go for my first therapy and we will wait and see. i hope i can recover now! i said now.